I’m not going to lie. I’m a little nervous about this post. Probably more nervous than the posts about my separation with my husband! Speaking about dieting/weight loss isn’t always well received but I really wanted to share this part of my life. I’m going to tell you about my decision to sign up to The One to One Diet but also why I decided to not mention it on my social media and to very few people in real life.
Weight loss is a tricky topic isn’t it? There are millions of Instagram accounts from people who follow a certain plan and their “journey” to be the weight they want to be. There are also a million accounts of body positive people who tell you to love the body you’re in and if your clothes don’t fit…buy new clothes! Neither are wrong. If you can love the body you’re in, no matter what size, shape or weight you are then fantastic, I’m pleased for you. If you want to lose weight, there is nothing wrong with that too! Good on you for making a change to make yourself a little healthier. Neither should be shamed and yet, I felt like I couldn’t share that I was about to begin a plan to hopefully lose just under 3 stone.
- I know some people aren’t interested in food and weight loss content so I felt I would be alienating some of my audience if I posted about it.
- I didn’t want the pressure of people knowing. What if I wasn’t successful? What if I had a blip one week?
- I didn’t want to be judged. For the plan I was doing or that I wanted to lose weight.
So I set up a separate, anonymous Instagram account to keep me focused. I also wanted to document my weeks as I hopefully took a step towards liking what I saw in the mirror. For me this was the best option and I could share my separate account when I felt comfortable, which I am doing today. Eeek! If people are interested and want to follow, they can. If they’re not interested, I’m not offended!
Well since meeting my ex husband in 2009, I’ve literally tried every plan going. Each plan has worked for a while and I’ve lost a little weight but before long I’ve stopped following it and the weight has gone back on. Since having Lucas almost 7 years ago I’ve never been happy with my body or the weight I was. I’ve always hated my stomach and the lack of shape in my waist when I’m at my heaviest. I longed to wear jeans and a top to more favoured leggings and smock dresses because they fit whether I lost weight or I didn’t.
2021 was the year of Becka. I wanted to “find me” and focus on what made me happy – mentally and physically. Whilst the mental side of things is ongoing, like most people in the new year, I decided it was time to start on the physical!
How Have I Done?
Well since the beginning of the year I’ve gone from 13 stone 12.5 pounds to 11 stone 6 pounds. I’ve dropped from a size 16 to a size 12.
More importantly, I’ve gone from disliking what I see in the mirror to liking it again. When I take a photo I like the shape of my face and I’m really enjoy trying new clothes that I would never have worn a few months ago. It’s a bit of an experiment as I don’t really know what clothes I like my new body in but there is a lot that I used to like that I now don’t!
Do I have a flat stomach? Nope far from it? Do my thighs and arms still jiggle? Yep! Have a still got a double chin at certain angles? Yep! But I was never aiming for what the media deem as “perfect”. I know, as a person who avoids gyms, that I’m not going to be toned within every inch of my life and I’m fine with that. The aim was to enjoy dressing myself, feel confident and comfortable in my own skin. I now do.
And you know what, this girl that avoided exercise has actually started making an effort to move more. I enjoy going for a little walk around the village or around the block on my lunch at work to increase my steps each day. I’m enjoying using my weighted hula hoop on an evening when the kids are in bed whilst watching some Netflix. I’m actually thinking about doing the odd YouTube work out too! I think because I like my body more, I want to take care of it more.
I’d like to see 11 stone exactly on the scales so I’m aiming to get that last 6lb off and then maintain. It’s my birthday in a couple of weeks so it’s more about not gaining until after then.
The next challenge is trying to maintain my weight as it is. Working out a balance on what I eat to ensure I don’t end up back where I was in January. I don’t think I will. I love how I feel too much to do that to myself. I’m happy floating around in a half stone bracket and I know realistically that my weight will fluctuate a little depending on what I have going on week by week. I’d like to get to a point where I don’t weigh myself every week and I can go by my (size 12!) jeans and how they fit.
I was ready to do this. In the back of my mind I knew I wanted to tackle this before Sienna got older. I didn’t want either child growing up with Mummy battling her weight. I didn’t want to influence them regarding it or make them think they need to lose weight to be happy etc. I’m hoping I can teach them about a healthy balanced diet. Lockdown really helped because there were no temptations for meals out and I could focus. I’m not sure if I would have achieved it without it but I’m so glad I did.
I’ll share more on the plan I followed in another post – there is too much to say! I’m aware that it won’t be for everyone and it was never a long term plan for me. It was what I needed to get to where I wanted to be and then maintain a healthy, balanced diet.